So, it's New Year, and I wrote my obligatory new year ramble. Personally, I'd say 2016 has been a right mixed bag...a box of chocolates except that they were all jumbled up and some of them turned out to be strawberry creme (ugh) or empty wrappers pretending to be chocolates. Tl;dr: the year started off great for me, became an unmitigated disaster somewhere around Autumn, then picked up again in the last few months in a sudden and unexpected turnaround. To summarise, in no particular order:
Things That Were Awful:
- Massive depression meltdown in early Autumn. I had one of these last year too, but back then I naively thought "once you hit rock bottom, there's no way but up, right?" This time around, however, I apparently discovered rock bottom's basement.
- the inevitable changing medication YET AGAIN prompted by this, during which I became substantially less useful than a bucket of half-melted chocolate hammers.
- Saddest of all: I didn't talk about it online at the time, but a long-time friend of all us Gamesoc lot passed away earlier this year. The news came as a shock, and social gatherings with the old guard will always feel like there's a massive hole there. People can never be replaced.
Things That Were Good:- As ghastly as the medication changeover was at the time, the doctor put me on Prozac this year and after a dfegggbkigesvjo couple of weeks at the start, I can honestly say it's doing me a world of good. - Andy and I adopted two new members of Casa del Fluffy: Luna and Bo chinchilla. - We went abroad for the first time in a long time to Greece. - Did Infest again this year, even at the period when I was probably at my most confused and anxious. Being at a festival with friends really got me away from the "aaaaargh!" Inside my own head, and I met so many new people. - Several creative projects are chugging along nicely dispite setbacks. - I started contributing to a mental health resource project at my work, so at least something worthwhile may yet come out of my complete and total falling apart in September.
There is probably a whole load more I could mention, but I'm in the bewildered haze following a migraine right now an my memory isn't what it should be. But right now, in terms of personal stuff anyway, I'm genuinely feeling reasonably optimistic about the days ahead.
Happy new year, people. I hope things are going well for you all.